and another one bites the dust

So life is pretty confusing today. I really need guidance and wisdom. I am seeking prayer for direction in my life. Also another lesson in trusting God I feel is in the works.

On Tuesday I was informed that they are closing the daycare in which i work. The last day is October 29th which gave the staff less than a week to find an alternative job. The last few days have been a surreal blur. Each day the parents of the kids in which i care for ask me a myriad of questions, the kids seem a little bit sad and the staff are just not with it.

Basically, what happened was the original owner was going to take over the daycare once again. She decided to turn it down and the owners who have it now see the daycare for what it can be. They are closing the doors and renovating the place. Which means it will be closed for two months and are looking for "new families and a new staff" as they put it. We were encouraged to find employment elsewhere.

There are a variety of ways that i feel down about this. First of all these kids i've spent the last two months with i feel for them. They have to start all over again. I feel for the staff who have been there for ten or more years. I also feel just confused personally. I know God has given me this job in order to show me how much i love it. I have never loved a job this much (not even camp). This is a stepping stone to opening my orphanage some day and i truly believe that now.

For now i am considering a few day cares in the area but am also open to other ideas. I feel like right now in my life day care is where I am supposed to be. Maybe there is one out there that is better for me in the long run.

Like i said i really need some prayer in guidance and wisdom!

Seeking HIS will,
Kris Locker

some relief...

So after some praying and careful consideration of my life I quit my part-time job. I was looking at my life realistically. For the last month I have been so drained physically and emotionally. I became more emotional due to exhaustion. Luckily the second job was not needed financially but was only a source of added money. I had to ask myself why I was taking this job and why I was sacrificing sleep and weekends for this job. I really couldn't come up with a good answer so i quit. I told my boss that I was burnt out and just couldn't work there anymore. She took it really well and said she totally understood.

I looked up some verses about money to help with my decision:
*Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money."

*Mat 6:19-21 "Do not save riches for yourselves here on earth, where moths and rust destroy, and robbers break in and steal. Instead, save riches for yourselves in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and robbers cannot break in and steal. For your heart will always be where your riches are."

God provided me a full time job which supplies everything I "need". I believe I made the right choice and now can be in a shut-in during the week and actually do things on the weekends. I was going to wait until i saved up money to get a car. I felt that way until i saw the verse about saving up money. I don't really need the job and have been so physically exhausted lately that I was dragging at both jobs. I decided to quit the side job and felt a weight lifted afterward.

So now i have my weekends back and now get a chance to sleep on the weekends. I have been so exhausted that I just wasn't myself and whenever i had time to do something i would sleep and sleep some more. I became this empty shell and wasn't liking what i saw. No amount of money is worth that.