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Sunday, March 17, 2013

Taking it personal...

As much as you try (and you is meaning me) things feel personal. Even if not meaning to. I just got out of a meeting that discussed the future program that I am currently in charge of. They made a very long list of things to be improved and changed. It was hard to not feel like I was being dumped on. For a ministry that is "part time" there is a limit to what I could do. Most people were future focused but there were a few that seemed to focus on the here and now and what "is currently wrong" which makes it very difficult to not take personally. There will always be those who think you're not doing something well enough and will nit pick you and nothing will ever be good enough. There is one in every congregations and the one at mine is very vocal about the "youth program" and how I run it. I wish I knew how to not take it personally. It's something I am working on and learning as I go. I am glad they are continuing the program and not leaving it to parent volunteers, which i believe is a terrible idea, and they are even looking at making it a full time position. GREAT IDEA. I'm  glad they are looking to the future but I have never been more nervous and uncomfortable in a meeting. I am looking forward to doing ministry in Grand Rapids and being where God wants me to be. I have learned a great deal about myself, ministry and working together through this opportunity of working at this church. I think God blessed me to be sitting around encouragers today in the meeting and not the few negative people there. They went out of their way to encourage me.

Today was difficult but God is still faithful and loves me very much!